Here we are at week 38 already. As many times as I try to will this baby out of me each day, I would still be totally surprised if it actually happened today, tomorrow, or even in two weeks! I was having this discussion with my husband the other day – when do you actually feel like a mom? I mean, obviously I love this little “it” that I am growing, but it 100% has not hit me yet that I am his or her Mom. Does this happen when I go into labor? Hold the baby for the first time? Bring it home to be totally reliant on me and my husband? It’s a funny thing to think about.
While I lie in bed at night between bathroom trips and rolling back and forth like a whale, I ponder all of these crazy questions, and I also think about how I am going to politely fend off all comments tomorrow at work regarding my pregnancy – like I’ve had to every week for the past month it seems like: Yup I am still here. – No, I am not past my due date (and on that note, yes, I still have until June 24). – I know, I feel as big as I look. – No, I am not having twins. – No, they have not told me my baby weighs more than 10 pounds, actually it was in the 53rd percentile at our last ultrasound. – I know I look tired, thank you (I am tired! You try getting up 5 times during the night to go to the bathroom and then carry around a bowling ball all day while doing physical therapy on people!) – No, I’m not worried about going into labor at work (at least I wasn’t until you said that). Of course I respond to each and every comment with a smile and a self-reminder that thankfully pregnancy is only for a finite amount of time.
I have been trying to do last minute preparations around the house “just in case” this babe decides to debut early. I guess maybe I’m nesting? I was originally a little naive and didn’t think I would do freezer meals because “I could make quick meals after the baby is here”. Okay, okay. I apologize to all of you out there who are already moms because you probably just rolled your eyes and laughed at me a little, and I’m sure I deserve it. I think around 30 weeks it hit me that, yeah, I’m going to have a baby attached to me (literally) every 2 hours for the first few months of life, not to mention if I think I feel like a zombie now, it’s only going to get worse with less sleep! Therefore, freezer meal prep began. I made 5 different meals this weekend and last, but I am going to share my chicken burritos with you for now because they are super easy and very versatile!